A New Year!!

Any New Year's Resolutions this year? Are you thinking about your sexual orientation - are you at the early stages, where you don't know for sure. Ah, yes, I do remember.
It is a difficult time, yet an exciting time. I don't know that I'd want to go back through some of those exciting times, although they are necessary to our growth. But it's true that the infatuation stage makes us crazy. We do and think things we wouldn't normally do. It's all part of the process, but in hindsight, I find it a little exhausting, and when in my rational mind, I don't want to go there again. We all enjoy the fascination and "being in love" feeling, as it's the best feeling in the world, but researchers has found it is equivalent to being high. I think I like stable, but in love better. I remember, with my first "BIG" lesbian love, that I thought I would be with forever, it was crazy. The energy between us was intense, and exhausting. It did calm down, and unfortunately, we broke up, even though I thought it was for a lifetime. Scary stuff, isn't it. Being in a relationship is scary, period. i think that's why so many people these days are getting pets - safe and unconditional love from your pet. I have continued to take risks in interpersonal relationships. I have a number of close friends, and a partner. Now, I am older and she is younger - by 16 years. How does that happen? I have to say, though, I don't know if I would do it again. Perhaps in the future it would be about companionship. Although I think the person I am with is also planning a lifetime commitment and I believe her, but I've learned that sometimes things happen we can't control.
How about you? Are you willing to take chances. Do you have your wall up, your big toe dipped in the water, or have you jumped all the way in, or are you willing to jump all the way in, just don't have the opportunity yet? Think about it and make some decisions. You are in control of your destiny, not others. Take chances, or don't take chances. Let joy in, or be safe and in control.